Luv & Light,

Lynn

I remember when you filled my heart with joy
Was I blind to the truth just there to fill the space
‘Cause now you have no interest in anything I have to say
And I have allowed you to make me feel dumb
What kind of fool am I that you so easily set me aside

You made a fool of me
Tell me why
You say that you don’t care but we made love
Tell me why
You made a fool of me you made a fool of me

I want to kiss you
Does she want you with the pain that I do
I smell you in my dreams
But now when we’re face to face you won’t look me in the eye
No time no friendship no love
Don’t say don’t touch you I can’t touch you no more
Can’t touch you any more any more
I don’t touch you anymore

You made a fool of me
Tell me why
You say that you don’t care but we made love
Tell me why
You made a fool of me you made a fool of me

i love you more
than you could ever know
having you in my life
has allowed me to grow

you are alway there for me
when no one else is
you give me unconditional love
i feel for those that don’t know what that is

i know it’s unconditional
because i put up with a lot
like you pissing on my curtain
and begging for food and what not

you’re loud and aggressive at times
it jars me and makes me sad
but at other time you are so sweet and innocent
how can i ever stay mad

my heart sinks
because i will be leaving you soon
but grandma and grandpa will love you
i’m sure they will make your puppy heart swoon

and so enough
we will be reunited again
and we can live a rural live
without all these temptations for “sin”

we traveled together for countless lives
and i really think this will be out last
we’re coming to the end of Life’s strives

so stop whining
cuz it’s all gonna be great
cuz we are in touch with something
i am aware of our Life’s fate

i’m feeling kinda sad and alone
sitting here waiting for the phone
to ring so i know you care
even though i know i shouldn’t go there

everyday i’m back and forth
trying to figure out how i feel
about what resides up north

i know i need to be by myself
i’m walking a solitary path right now
i simply need to focus on my body and health

but i want it so bad
i can feel it in my bones
my heart wants to love another
it wants to sing and dance with Mother Earth’s tones

how do i release my desire for love
how to i gain the patience to just wait
till it is sent from up above

how do i stop creating stories of what could be
how do i stop thinking and just it back
and wait and see

i can taste the feeling of love in my heart
the joy and bliss make my mouth water
it’s like i am experiencing timeless art

but whatever, it is what it is
i’m not going to shed a tear
i’m gonna put a smile on my face
and go have a beer

i’m feeling warmth and joy in my heart
i think i’ve finally made it back to the start

i’m here all alone
no one loving me or holding me tight
and for the first time in a while
is feels so completely right

love of another made me forget
the love the i set out to find
when i first began this quest

now 12 months later
i’ve come back to the start
feeling safe and content
with the self love in my heart

i feel stronger now than ever before
at times i feared i would never make it
back to this door

but here i am
i’m walking through
with a clear intention
of what i need to do

keep focused on myself
keep doin’ what i do
because if i do i am quiet certain
that all my dreams will continue to come true

the sky was dark and heavy
it push down hard upon my head
but the chirping birds were singing
the sweet song erased all dread

the crows from high above
send out a warning call to all
welcome welcome welcome
it’s Mother Earth, how do you like fall?

fall my favorite season, i said
the leaves so colorful and bright
right before the world considers them dead
when there are so leave on trees in sight

and in between the calls
motorboats rolling
car engines rolling
music playing in the market
where all the people are strolling

rain sprinkles down on us
but we pay no mind
no need for an umbrella
no fuss

we are here to buy some flowers
to put in a lovely vase
so that every time i see them
a smile will come across my face

thank you Mother Earth
for all your glorious gifts
i start enjoying all weather
no more weather fits 

i know your scared
to take this leap
i know your scared
that you won’t land on your feet

but listen to me
i’m going to tell you what is true
everything is going to be fine
you’re gonna make it through

the fear is not yours
it belong to your ego, your subconscious
as soon as you understand that
you can wake up from being unconscious

and when you wake up
you can start living from your heart
and joy and love will flow
as it was meant to from the start

don’t be scared
of what you don’t know
not knowing is the most intimate
you will reap what you sow

so always be open
when oddities come into your life
because the more you ignore them
the more you life will be filled with strife

get ready
for what you don’t know
open your eyes
and watch everything grow

i’m only here to love you
and to make the world a better place
so join me, lets do it together
lets rid the world of this yucky taste! 

the down
down
down
came back around
it snuck in though a poem without making a sound

an awareness of self
i didn’t want to see
a realization of how far i am
from where i want to be

still holding on
to insecurity and doubt
even tho people tell me otherwise
it’s almost like i need them to shout

and i want to blame her
for holding me back
because her words are the only ones that matter
but she won’t give me any slack

she won’t tell me i’m good
or that ever mattered to her
but without her validation
i find it hard to be secure

last i heard i was hurtful and mean
and i am not a person
with which she wants to be seen

and since then only silence
i don’t exist
i could deliver the world to her front door
and her disdain for me would persist

but it’s not her fault
only i am responsible for how i feel
and the same is true for her
only when we are on this same page
can we move forward and heal

and i’m grasping with hope
that we will be on the same page soon
but i know that’s not true
if at all, it will be many many cycles of the moon

i also know i did nothing
to deserve this ice cold treatment
she is doing what she has to do
i respect that
no need to give her a preachment

so once again
i’m letting her go
but i’ll keep writing as long
as my feeling for her flow

This comes from an amazing blog called Awakening Women Blog, actually, it’s the only blog i subscribe to! 

We Have Come to Be Danced

We have come to be danced
not the pretty dance
not the pretty pretty, pick me, pick me dance
but the claw our way back into the belly
of the sacred, sensual animal dance
the unhinged, unplugged, cat is out of its box dance
the holding the precious moment in the palms
of our hands and feet dance

We have come to be danced
not the jiffy booby, shake your booty for him dance
but the wring the sadness from our skin dance
the blow the chip off our shoulder dance
the slap the apology from our posture dance

We have come to be danced
not the monkey see, monkey do dance
one, two dance like you
one two three, dance like me dance
but the grave robber, tomb stalker
tearing scabs & scars open dance
the rub the rhythm raw against our souls dance

WE have come to be danced
not the nice invisible, self conscious shuffle
but the matted hair flying, voodoo mama
shaman shakin’ ancient bones dance
the strip us from our casings, return our wings
sharpen our claws & tongues dance
the shed dead cells and slip into
the luminous skin of love dance

We have come to be danced
not the hold our breath and wallow in the shallow end of the floor dance
but the meeting of the trinity: the body, breath & beat dance
the shout hallelujah from the top of our thighs dance
the mother may I?
yes you may take 10 giant leaps dance
the Olly Olly Oxen Free Free Free dance
the everyone can come to our heaven dance

We have come to be danced
where the kingdom’s collide
in the cathedral of flesh
to burn back into the light
to unravel, to play, to fly, to pray
to root in skin sanctuary
We have come to be danced
WE HAVE COME

Flyin’ Free

flyin’ free
flyin’ fast
hope i can make
this moment last

the ups so up
dreams can come true
but the down
down
down
down
is probably coming back soon

this too shall pass
is tattooed on my arm
i’ve got to remember that
when my joy seems in harm

the cycles of life
so big and so small
time collapses on itself
and doesn’t exist at all

14 billion years coming to now
it’s a fucking miracle
and for the most part
humans have figured out how

but don’t think for a second
that we will ever know it all
for if we try to know too much
we will rise and we will fall

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don’t do it

i know you were hurt
by some things i did and said
but don’t let that be the primary story
that lingers in your head

you deserve the light and love
that is abundant in my heart
i’ll do my nest to give you all you need
including time and space apart